Sunday, October 23, 2011

Little hike... (Big Reminder)

Owl's Nest Park: Walking down the sledding hill

What a difference a year makes!

I posted these two photos over the weekend, but offer this little post-script on Monday.

As Louie said upon seeing this's pretty crazy to see me up in this tree. This time last year, I was pregnant with Beatrice and just starting to show signs of the trouble that landed me on bedrest. This tree is at the bottom of the big hill that Josie and Louie went sledding down last year. It was their first time sledding and so heartbreaking that I had to miss it. We are worlds away from that time now. It was joyous to walk down this  hill as a family of four! And I can't wait for the first big snow so I can go sledding this year too!

Here's that video from last year - when I recently watched it again - I saw it very differently. Last year, as we were living through the bedrest, it was just the reality. We knew it was really hard on Josie to "lose" me for all those months, but when I saw this video and heard her little voice, her pain became very real to me in a way that I guess it wasn't when we were in survival mode while going through it. Like everything else, looking back and reflecting now - things are more clear. There are *still* times when we look at Sweet Baby Bea and can't believe she is real - even all these months later! I guess this is all just the long way of saying that I feel really, really, really blessed and really, really, really grateful for our life these days. Thanks for sharing it all with us.

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